Cleaning My Closet

I used to hear "new year's resolution"  whenever New Year is coming.    I remember our teacher in school asked us to list down all that we wanted to get rid of and change in our life.    Mine was to hold my temper and not to say the F*** and S*** if am mad and if I did I have to say sorry to myself.    Sometimes, I am still trying to hold my tongue. 

So,  what is your new year's resolution?

Mine is to clean my closet.    I have many clothes that are not being used which piled inside the closet. They are still good and just worn a few times.    What is the use of keeping those clothes if I am not wearing them?    Give them away, they may serve a purpose on to others.   Not so easy because I used to wear them, felt comfortable and maybe even look good on them, but I have to get rid of them so that I can have space for new ones.

The most difficult indeed is to clean the deepest personal closet.     The same thing with my clothes in the closet,   I have to rid of what was rotten in deep inside of me so then I can have the space to fill it with good ones.

Who can tell me that it is easy to forgive?   It's not easy but what is the use of holding personal pain.  I love myself and please forgive myself for hurting the deepest me.   I will not let myself to feel more down. 

I was not born to understand other people's lives,  I may be a part of their lives and be an instrument.  Everyone else is so busy wondering about their own life and so do I.   I have to learn to fix myself,  like how others are busy understanding and fixing themselves. 

Thanks for the pain that other people had caused me.   If I am not special like the decoration that people carefully nailed on the wall to prevent its falling and be still,  I would not be hammered and nailed.   The wall where I was hammered and nailed served as my backbone when I can no longer stand. 

I am forgiving myself but not the people had caused it,  like me, they have to forgive themselves.   Least will never win my trust again.   Thanks, fellow human for being an instrument in understanding life.   Like my old clothes,  I am throwing the pain,  will never wear it back and will not have the same kind of clothes again. 

No one is responsible for our own life but ourselves.

No matter how ugly life is just look around and say how lucky you are. 

Head up.    Get up.    Take a deep breath.    The sun is smiling. 

Life is beautiful.  Life has more to offer to teach us.

Have a clean closet.

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Generation Gap

Generation gap referring to differences between people of a younger generation and their elders, especially between a child and their parent's generation.

Thinking of my mom being alone in our flat on her recent vacation in Bahrain when my sister and I are both at work.  Doing our house chores, television and telephone are her outlets on completing days when she was alone.

My mom had her secretarial course in college in the year of type-writers. 

I remember Mr. Postman's delivery of letters takes seven to fourteen days. 

Comes next the voice tape-recorded messages are being sent., instead of letters.

Pagers then used by business "on-the-go" people, receiving messages wherever they go.  The use of the landline phone still needed to communicate to the operator and send the message.

Cellphone came, the one with long antennas and bigger phones available only from a few major telecoms, followed by more designs, specifications of phones.

Same thing from personal computer 'desktop" to a laptop, to a netbook, to the palm-sized iphone.

Generation of technology is fast changing. 

My mom had to learn how to use a mobile phone in order for us to contact her wherever she goes and thus for her to send us SMS when only a few seconds count to reach its receiver.

Home, mom used to have someone to call her when yahoo messenger is set for chatting.

In Bahrain, she has to learn how to operate the computer by herself when we are at work.  My sister and I encouraged her.   It was just like a bigger size of a cellphone and it is just like sending SMS when chatting. Video calling from the laptop is simply like calling from a mobile phone.  From power on, log-in into Facebook, browsing till power off, all had been taught to her.

It was fun for her exchanging messages and receiving comments on her posted photos on Facebook. 

I was just behind her for the instructions.  She has to learn to press the keys by herself.  She at times got confused where the letters are and lost her patience for not remembering all the given instructions. 

There are non-stop and continuing on developing technologies.  We have to learn to adapt to the world were we in.  If it is not learned in the first instance then try it again.  It takes time and practice, add to that the patience to master it.  

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Which Language You Need

Sa larangan ng trabaho sa abyasyon (aviation) na sumasalamuha sa iba't-ibang tao, maraming beses na nasusubok ang kakayahan at pasensiya ng mga crew.

The announcement has been made in both English and local language hence there are some who still seems to not understand, choose to ignore and refuse to understand.  Haysssttt.

Maka-ilang beses na ang panawagan ay nabanggit pero nanatili siya upuang hindi naka-assigned.  Pinaki-usapan pero di natinag.  "I have been travelling a lot in my whole life and never encountered problem with changing the seats!", kanya pong tinuran.  "You are just telling me to move right now just to make your colleague feel better", ika po niya.  Katulad ng paliwanag ng aking colleague muli akin pong ipinaliwanag.    Narinig lang na ipapaalam sa kapitan, gumalaw din yang puwit sa kinauupuan. 

Pagkatapos na mai-release ang sinturong pangkaligtasan binalikan ko ang pasahero upang magpa-salamat sa cooperation at isang local na pahayagan iniabot ko sa kanya...this time naka-ngiti na po si lolo :-). Maya maya pa ibinalita ng kasamahan ko na humingi ng paumanhin sa kanya si lolo :-).  Oh diba smooth ang trabaho ng walang buwisit.

Sometimes it is good not to understand what they are saying if and only if it comes from the non-sense rude tongue. 

May pasahero naman who just paid for a seat on a specific date na animo'y binayaran pati na buong pagkatao ng mga crew, lalo na akala mo'y binayaran buong eroplano.  Isang bugtong hininga para dun. 

I always say that it is a lot better to work when the cabin is full for as long the as the passengers respect the crew, pero kung kahit lima lang sila na walang respeto - daig pa nito ang full cabin.  

Cabin crew are doing their job to give the passengers the utmost service and comfort, not just simply giving a cup of coffee or tea.  They are there primarily for the safety of all the passengers.  Konteng respeto lang po.

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Washing Machine Spins My Head

Washing Machine Spinner

I was almost done doing the laundry.  Thanks washing machine for the wonderful job.  My buddy machine just finished washing the blankets and linens and spinning them.

My dilemma started when spinner just stopped working.   My head spun fast and thought, and thought and thought...its winter.   The washing machine spinner is a much-needed help for fast drying the clothes when hanging them.   Who is going to fix it?   Where I am going to take it for fixing?  Will the shop take it from my flat if I called them?   I needed it now.

I made a quick mental review of what just happened.  It was spinning and it just stopped when I lean on its slightly opened lid. 

Observed the cover and mechanism.  I got curious with something that "hooked" on its lid.  I tried to pull it up and saw no function.  What happened inside, I want to see.  Besides, I am taking it to the repair shop so let me break it "just" a little more if I can't find the source of its stoppage. 
What a bright idea.

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